its not that i hate you

its not that i hate you
i just expected so much more from your love
you lead me to this place of heartbreak for no reason that i can see

i know that you can heal my sorrow
and i know that you have failed to over and over again

and i know that only you can help me

what can i do now

i'm right here, over and over, all the time
still in this sweet sorrow
so long that its the only friend i have left

the people keep passing by

and the world won't stop
it won't stop and pick me up
and say we can't go on until
until there's daylight for me

no, i don't hate you
i never hated you
i still don't

my sadness comes from loving you
and knowing that you can comfort me
you can build the bridge from here to that unknown land
where these tears actually mean something

i'm crushed by the cruel truth that the day may come

but it didn't come today

and i still don't hate you

today is the first day of the rest of my existential crisis

today is the first day of the rest of my existential crisis