Sunday, February 15, 2009

its not that i hate you

its not that i hate you
i just expected so much more from your love
you lead me to this place of heartbreak for no reason that i can see

i know that you can heal my sorrow
and i know that you have failed to over and over again

and i know that only you can help me

what can i do now

i'm right here, over and over, all the time
still in this sweet sorrow
so long that its the only friend i have left

the people keep passing by

and the world won't stop
it won't stop and pick me up
and say we can't go on until
until there's daylight for me

no, i don't hate you
i never hated you
i still don't

my sadness comes from loving you
and knowing that you can comfort me
you can build the bridge from here to that unknown land
where these tears actually mean something

i'm crushed by the cruel truth that the day may come

but it didn't come today

and i still don't hate you
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5 comments:

  1. sallyFebruary 15, 2009 at 9:10 PM

    this is a beautiful and heart-rending poem

    i'm glad you are writing

    love

    sally

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  2. jhFebruary 18, 2009 at 2:46 PM

    i wonder if this may be a fuller expression
    of the garden of gethsemane

    not my will

    j

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  3. jhFebruary 21, 2009 at 7:41 AM

    i heard and saw Parker Palmer last night
    on Bill Moyers
    and he was speaking about the importance of heartbreak
    the tender balance between reality
    and possibility
    and our need for other human beings to
    be present to us

    reality abounds but in fact
    there are for any one person
    only a few possibilities
    and our effort need be
    discerning those few possibilities
    as our recourse to the freedom our hearts
    crave

    at least you haven't given yourself over
    to Nietzchean nihilism

    though far away
    i'm always here for you pal

    j

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  4. jmcgillMarch 4, 2009 at 8:58 AM

    reality does not abound

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  5. jhMarch 6, 2009 at 6:31 AM

    guitars abound
    you can only really play one at a time

    get real

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